VIDEO: Death and Missing it

My friend Ferd Eggan died last week. He was such a good guy. Actually he was a revolutionary in every sense of the word. Here’s his obit in the LA Times.

Described by colleagues as brash, articulate and charismatic, Eggan
championed public housing assistance for homeless people with HIV and
AIDS and guided efforts to include women and minorities in AIDS
policy-making roles. He also led the city to fund important research,
including the first major study to demonstrate the link between crystal
methamphetamine use and HIV risk in gay and bisexual men.

Ferd drove up to San Francisco to basically say good bye to all his friends here. I got the chance to set down and talk with him about death. He looked like he was going to die, and he wasn’t afraid to talk about it. In the early 70′s, he was in a movie/documentary about his life called "The Continuing Story of Carel and Ferd". You can see an excerpt here. This was really groundbreaking stuff before anyone had thought about "reality TV".

So Ferd was no stranger to self-documentation. He spoke about many "uncomfortable" topics on his videoblog, "The Cranky PWA". I met Ferd when he started sending me questions about how to post video online. He was totally fearless about using new artforms to express himself. No preciousness. (He was posting up till his last week…and the blog got kind of messy.)

Here’s a funny moment with Ferd. Be aware that he had a morphine pump attached to him for the pain. He died 3 days after this video. I was very lucky to have known him. I’m going to make sure my life kicks ass as well.

5 Responses to “VIDEO: Death and Missing it”

  1. Rupert says:

    What if I miss?
    Holy smoke.
    Amazing that you and he could capture and share this.
    And a difficult question asked well and straightforwardly.
    What a good guy :)

  2. B says:

    I just heard about this and I’m writing about it right now. I haven’t even watched your video because I’m having such urgency about just communicating about this and text is faster.
    I just feel thankful that his videos are out there, really. He changed me in the brief time I barely knew him.
    Ima calm down and watch now. Remember to breathe. So sad.

  3. charlene says:

    thanks, Jay. I had such a strong reaction to Ferd dying. It was so striking to feel like I knew him and we hadn’t even met in person. It was like I lost a companion. This little world in cyberspace takes friendships, understanding one another, and sometimes intimacy to a level that I think even we aren’t able to comprehend. Not sure what it all means, but glad Ferd was a part of it.
    http://www.scratchvideo.tv/scratch/2007/07/fireflies-for-f.html

  4. Marco Larsen says:

    Check out a myspace, I made to post up some of Ferds Spoken word
    http://www.myspace.com/ferdaudioable

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